Wednesday, 04 February 2009
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Two Hearts Beating in One Body
Hi Blog-readers! Are there even any of you out there? I intended to make my blog an interesting place to stop by and learn a bit about some natural mothering, some cranky mom-rants, and some general observations about our lovely culture for families, but I'm a ball-dropper. I wish that somehow by pointing this out maybe I'll be more inspired to make it right. Anyway, on with the post.
So I'm 14 weeks pregnant. All is going well as far as the apparent health of the baby and my overall well-being. I'm finding mothering a toddler while battling that First Trimester Blah a little bit challenging, but it's getting better. Generally my son is high-spirited and demanding, so I've had to try to keep up with him (level with him, that is) a little bit more while I'm feeling low energy. His behavior is vacillating between adorable, tolerable, and downright naughty, but think that's par for the course at his age anyway. Daddy has really kept up well and has increased his share of the work without much complaint, so we're making it okay.
Nausea is mostly gone but the new bother is heartburn. I'm not one that suffers heartburn in "normal" life, but I certainly have had my fair share over the past week or two. Not sure what the culprit is exactly but my big fear is that this will be an ongoing symptom. It could be temporary and that's what I'm hoping, so we'll just have to see. It's really uncomfortable and just really frustrating because I thought I'd be feeling great by now. *sigh* There will be better days.
I haven't been able to keep myself from buying baby things- already! I know, I really thought I could reign it in until we at least found out the sex of the baby, but no. I had to open the paypal account to take care of some things for big brother and wound up fighting myself over a few newborn diapers and losing, big time. The damage has been slight so far, but it will be noticeable when I'm done! The way I see it, I'm snagging some deals as I see them instead of just making a big, fearful purchase at full price in June or July. Picking away at a shopping list instead of having a spree. It's all good when it's baby stuff!
Hearing a little heart beating at over 150 beats per minute, from my abdomen, is an amazing thing. I love it. I love when a midwife can find it the instant she sticks the Doppler on my tummy. I love that to her it's a daily activity, like washing her hands, and yet it's still amazing. And to me, of course, it's mystifying and special, like a little window in to see how he or she is doing. I think the bonding is starting already. My tummy is blossoming, and while I'm not thrilled with that in-between way that my clothes are fitting, I am so truly happy that this is what I'm doing with my life right now. Creating another life.
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